Puzzle People

I do not believe in fate. I do not believe that we are destined for a certain outcome. I think that we are, over time, made into people. From the first moment we are aware, until the day we die, we are molded and shaped over time to be who we are.

I will call us the puzzle people. We are born a simple shape, able to fit into most places, but over time we are given information, or life lessons, that lead us to be molded into more jagged shapes, less able to fit into most area’s of life. Every time we “learn” something new, it has shaped a new square, round, or angular protrusion from ourselves, and we will no longer easily fit alongside our fellow people who hold dissimilar beliefs of the world.

Let us take romantic relationships. Say you meet someone, and they are pleasant, and you wish to continue to be with them. You find many of the shame shapes you two hold fit together nicely. That doesn’t mean perfectly. I would say it is nigh impossible to fit so well together with someone as to have all the shapes they do, you would have had to have lived the same life that they did. But I digress. You might find over time the shapes that don’t mesh with this person cause friction, as you both try to fit together more closely. The biggest mistake we make as people, is to think to be happy we have to make all those we associate with exactly like us, and have them hold the same beliefs. The important thing to remember in a relationship is that we will never have that perfect fit, and if you have found an ounce of happiness with another, work hard not to force them to be you. Most of us would be most displeased with dating ourselves, as we have many needs that we cannot supply to ourselves, though we know what they are. I’m not saying being with just anyone, and accepting their “flaws” will make you happy. I’m saying that if you find someone with many similar traits and beliefs you share, do not force them away over time when you finally realize they are actually more different from you.

As for relating to your fellow person, they do not have to be anything like you to receive value from them. They are a puzzle person as you are. If their jagged shapes do not fit yours, you do not have to associate with them, but you can talk to them and try to understand why their shapes are different from yours.

I have found most of the beliefs we hold are there because we believe they are the right thing. No one holds a belief simply for evil sake, they will do what they think is right. Be it right for themselves, or what they think is right for others. However, if one belief is that we all must burn alive to attain enlightenment, and they wish us all to attain this, and in this belief that it is the right thing to help us to that enlightenment, they will try to burn us. We can see how this jagged puzzle protrusion would find it hard to fit with others. My own puzzle protrusion holds the right of the individual above that of a group belief. I would say even if all of mankind believed we must attain enlightenment through being burnt, and I held this belief too, and one person did not wish to be burned, I would say we shouldn’t force them. Obviously replace the burning with anything an individual has to be forced to do, and it equates to the same thing in my book.

We are all individual puzzle pieces, and we all have different ways of finding a way of fitting together. Sometimes it takes time to shift about until we find the right place to be, be that work, or relating to our fellow person. Eventually we are usually able to find a place for ourselves. The effort we expend on fitting in can also be shaping us, and that will make it easier to find another fitting piece. But like I said, I do not believe we are fated to fit a certain area, we are continually molded, and any given time may be more likely to fit with certain pieces better, but that doesn’t mean you have to stay there, nor does it mean you will even find that place when you are looking. Taking the effort is what it is all about. May your shape fit with where you are, or where you are going.

What I’ve published

Poetry

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The Outsider Series

Deatship - Book 1 of the Outsider SeriesStarship - Book 2 of the Outsider SeriesPageflex Persona [document: PRS0000039_00072]

Link to my author page on Amazon – hhttp://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Or you can help me out on Patreon. Again, thank you. https://www.patreon.com/StevenOaks

Update – 1,053 words written on the latest novel.

“When you stop expecting people to be perfect, you can like them for who they are.”
― Donald Miller

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Breaking laws?

Hacktivists you say? Oh deary me, it’s almost as if when you break a law that isn’t directly hurting a person you are inherently evil. Perhaps those of you who agree with imprisoning people who put numbers… Oh, like the number 1 at the end of web-address, maybe you should stop speeding.

If you live in America… the supposed land of the free, you are inherently breaking some law all the time. Not using a cross walk? Criminal. A light out on your car that you didn’t notice, criminal. You can be stopped for suspicion, but what is suspicious behaviour?

You aren’t free. Sorry, you just happen to be a crooked guard and a prisoner that’s watching other prisoners go by. There are laws that are there to protect, but if you look closely, who are they protecting? Is it you, who just wants to walk down the street to get to the store? Or is it someone else?

Sorry, just watched a documentary that’s really got me irritated.

What I’ve published

Poetry

poems_front2

The Outsider Series

Deatship - Book 1 of the Outsider SeriesStarship - Book 2 of the Outsider SeriesPageflex Persona [document: PRS0000039_00072]

Link to my author page on Amazon – hhttp://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Or you can help me out on Patreon. Again, thank you. https://www.patreon.com/StevenOaks

Update – Building a time machine… so far it’s only sending me further into the future… Any good mechanics out there?

“Never underestimate the determination of a kid who is time-rich and cash-poor.”
― Cory Doctorow,

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A Bad Past

Today I wrote more, of course. The subject of today’s writing was difficult, and yet the words flowed. I’m almost afraid to let certain people read it as it might cause emotions they might not want to experience. Possibly reliving a horrible event in their life. However I felt it was necessary to do so we might know more about this character.

I thought her past would be dark, but I didn’t realize how dark it was going to be until the words started flowing. I’ll have to look at it another day, it was too emotional for me to have a good perspective of it now.

Once more the character took control, and told their story as they saw it. Somehow something so dark came from my own mind. Now I understand her behaviour better, and I’m glad she shared with me, but it was rough. Her words almost shut me up, and I nearly stopped writing before I had my daily word count completed. Then I realized I would have to keep writing it tomorrow anyway, so I pushed through.

It’s still weird to have what you want changed by what you think the character wants to say. I like writing, but getting to know someone like this seems rather crazy. They are made up of people I’ve met, and then they react on their own. I’ll have to think about this more.

What I’ve published

Poetry

poems_front2

The Outsider Series

Deatship - Book 1 of the Outsider SeriesStarship - Book 2 of the Outsider SeriesPageflex Persona [document: PRS0000039_00072]

Link to my author page on Amazon – hhttp://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Or you can help me out on Patreon. Again, thank you. https://www.patreon.com/StevenOaks

Update – 1,022 words written in the newest novel.

“She couldn’t get any farther away inside from her skin. She couldn’t get away.”
― Cynthia Voigt

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Memories and Dreams

Dreams are a funny thing. They can seem so real that they might even change a memory.

Last night I dreamed about a friend. In this dream I seemed to recall a memory that I had met her before we supposedly had in high school. Now I can’t determine if that’s true, or if my initial recognition of her was just that she seemed similar. Or even that I had any feeling at seeing her the first time. Does that rewrite the past, or am I just unable to remember things clearly?

My thoughts about what it means to be yourself, is your memories. If you can’t recall things, are you that person any more? Say you suddenly had amnesia, and were never able to recall who you were, are you the person you were before you lost your memories? I would say you aren’t.

Each time we sleep we make new memories, though false they may be, but they seem also to reorganize previous thoughts and deeds. Which means we aren’t the person we were yesterday when we wake up. There is never a consistent person known as Steven then. I’m new each day, and I cease to be me the next morning. I have memories, but I can’t decided which ones are real, and which ones I simply made up that fit the narrative of my life.

I wonder if other people feel this way, or if it’s normal and most people don’t notice. Depending on the day and mood conversations will go differently, and it all depends on the memories we hold in our head. If you forget your anger, you might befriend an enemy from the past. If you forget your love, you might leave the person you held dear the day before.

Following this line of thought, we only life one day at most. Who you were yesterday is gone, though signs of their passing remain. And tomorrow a new you will come into being. So then we might want to make each day count. Be the best you that you can be while you last. Try to remember everything you can, because those are the echo’s of who we were, and they make us who we are and will become.

What I’ve published

Poetry

poems_front2

The Outsider Series

Deatship - Book 1 of the Outsider SeriesStarship - Book 2 of the Outsider SeriesPageflex Persona [document: PRS0000039_00072]

Link to my author page on Amazon – hhttp://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Or you can help me out on Patreon. Again, thank you. https://www.patreon.com/StevenOaks

Update – 1,007 words written in the newest novel.

“All that we see or seem is but a dream within a dream.”
― Edgar Allan Poe

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Language

Language is the method of sharing ideas.

Without a word to express

nothing is clear

But we can still convey

thoughts each day

in other ways

With your hands you can shape

with your body you can express

but complex ideas are harder to address

So to be a person

you must learn

all the words quickly

and soon

Only with words in your arsenal

will you be able to learn and show

all the things

that you and others are meant to know

What I’ve published

Poetry

poems_front2

The Outsider Series

Deatship - Book 1 of the Outsider SeriesStarship - Book 2 of the Outsider SeriesPageflex Persona [document: PRS0000039_00072]

Link to my author page on Amazon – hhttp://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Or you can help me out on Patreon. Again, thank you. https://www.patreon.com/StevenOaks

Update – 1,030 words written in the newest novel.

“Words are pale shadows of forgotten names. As names have power, words have power. Words can light fires in the minds of men. Words can wring tears from the hardest hearts.”
― Patrick Rothfuss

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The Outsider Series

I started writing the Outsider series in November of 2013. I had about a month free before I had gone back to work, but then I had an opportunity to get back to writing, and doing it full-time for a year. In that time I finished Deathship, and had it edited, and got it published in August 2014.

As I was working on editing Deathship I began writing Starship, and finished with its edits and published at the end of November 2014. And of course I began writing Warship as Starship was being edited. Now all three are out, and this particular story is complete. I’m not saying there won’t be more from Michael and Athene, but not for a little while.

Right now I’m working on a new story, one with new characters, and dealing with a different type of Science Fiction. This one will be slightly more adult in tone, and I’m finding it strange letting go of the mindset of the Outsider series. I wrote it on a level that most teenagers could comprehend, but I also tried to make it interesting enough for an adult audience. I personally think I did a decent job of that, but it’s not up to be to decide if I did or not.

However, I’m enjoying writing again, and I’m once more finding it easier. There were moments when I focused most of my attention on editing, and in those times it was difficult to get back to writing a story. I would focus on flaws in grammar, or in sentence structure more than I would in what I was saying. That would be why the last two books seemed to have taken longer, and Warship most of all.

Warship is the best writing I’ve done so far, while trying to keep consistent to what had come before. Breaking free of that, it is allowing me to become a better story-teller, insomuch as this latest novel is concerned. Hopefully you’ll enjoy it when it comes out, but for now, check out the Outsider Series.

Warship: Book 3 of the Outsider Series – http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00XNF6IN2

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What I’ve published

poems_front2Deatship - Book 1 of the Outsider SeriesStarship - Book 2 of the Outsider Series

Link to my author page on Amazon – hhttp://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Or you can help me out on Patreon. Again, thank you. https://www.patreon.com/StevenOaks

Update – Breakfast of Potatoes and Eggs… Delicious. Took a break from writing, as the weekend seems to be something we need in order to get back to work with a clear head.

“It is what you read when you don’t have to that determines what you will be when you can’t help it.”
― Oscar Wilde

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Warship Published

I think you know what I have to say today. That’s right, Warship, the final book in the Outsider Series. Michael’s story comes to a close, and we get to find out what those pesky Outsiders are, and even where they come from. Come on down and give the series a read. I enjoyed making it, I hope you get some enjoyment reading it.

Warship: Book 3 of the Outsider Series – http://www.amazon.com/dp/B00XNF6IN2

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What I’ve published

poems_front2Deatship - Book 1 of the Outsider SeriesStarship - Book 2 of the Outsider Series

Link to my author page on Amazon – hhttp://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Or you can help me out on Patreon. Again, thank you. https://www.patreon.com/StevenOaks

Update – 1,093 words written in the newest novel. I’m really proud of being able to write three books in so short a time. Each book seems to show my progress in writing, and I think Warship is the best I’ve done so far. Here’s looking forward to many more books!

“If you have a dream, don’t just sit there. Gather courage to believe that you can succeed and leave no stone unturned to make it a reality.”
― Roopleen

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Warship Cover

I apologize for not updating more often on the progress of Warship, but I didn’t have much to say. I continued to go through it, but mostly I was waiting on the cover. And today I can present it to you. Enormous thanks to Samantha Hartsock, she is an amazing artist.

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What I’ve published

poems_front2Deatship - Book 1 of the Outsider SeriesStarship - Book 2 of the Outsider Series

Link to my author page on Amazon – hhttp://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Or you can help me out on Patreon. Again, thank you. https://www.patreon.com/StevenOaks

Update – 1,021 words written for the newest novel. And if you pay attention to this particular part of my blog post, here’s a link.

“It is good to love many things, for therein lies the true strength, and whosoever loves much performs much, and can accomplish much, and what is done in love is well done.”
― Vincent van Gogh

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What is a Person?

What makes a person?

is it our form?

is it our mind?

or is it how we spend our time?

A robot with no brain can be shaped

it can be controlled to move as we do

and that would be the form of a person

but is that all we are?

Mere biological machines

moving from place to place

doing nothing more

that pretending grace?

Is it because we are biological then?

A group of working systems

made by evolution and through time

now walking upright

arisen from the slime

Or is it our ability to think?

Aware of our environment

aware of ourselves

fashioning theories

and reasons for itself

Perhaps our ability to communicate

should be something we should appreciate

you may have an idea

but not shared it dies with you

so perhaps through words

there is an underlying immortal

who only dies when we cease to communicate

Death is not the end

but it is not a beginning

only those ideas you conveyed remain

but if you have spoken

you live on within others

So what is a person?

We are that which looks at itself

and spreads ideas to others

We share, no matter how rare

what we think

that which is ourselves

Until the day we step over the brink

and into the void does the body go

never to return

but if a thought remains

you will too

What I’ve published

poems_front2Deatship - Book 1 of the Outsider SeriesStarship - Book 2 of the Outsider Series

Link to my author page on Amazon – hhttp://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Or you can help me out on Patreon. Again, thank you. https://www.patreon.com/StevenOaks

Update – 1,025 words written for the newest novel.

“Is it possible, in the final analysis, for one human being to achieve perfect understanding of another?
We can invest enormous time and energy in serious efforts to know another person, but in the end, how close can we come to that person’s essence? We convince ourselves that we know the other person well, but do we really know anything important about anyone?”
― Haruki Murakami

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The Dawning Sun

The fields begin to glow

green is almost black

but flickers of light fill the sky

and the sun is back

A new day

a new you

waking up the world

soon the sky turns blue

Not a cloud in sight

yet a mist covers the land

a world of mystery

in a newly discovered day

I’m filled with hope

I know not what is to come

but all I do know

is that yesterday is done

I can move forward

with this new light

and today

I will do what is right

What I’ve published

poems_front2Deatship - Book 1 of the Outsider SeriesStarship - Book 2 of the Outsider Series

Link to my author page on Amazon – hhttp://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Or you can help me out on Patreon. Again, thank you. https://www.patreon.com/StevenOaks

Update – 1,013 words written for the newest novel.

“We went down into the silent garden. Dawn is the time when nothing breathes, the hour of silence. Everything is transfixed, only the light moves.”
― Leonora Carrington

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