Anime, and Our Loss

Hello again. Here I am, writing another blog post. What a weird thing to do, though I suppose it’s something like a journal. Every week I write down what I’m thinking about, and I suppose I could always look back upon it. I rarely do, so maybe it’s just another thing that helps me write.

Anyway, what have I been up to? Hrm, I’ve read another eight books since last Monday. I think when I read ten books it was because a couple of those were of the shorter variety, still eight is a decent number.

I formatted the book, for the most part. The only thing that remains on that front is to link chapters to the index. A frustrating task sometimes, especially with the number of chapters we have in this book, at least in the way I did it last time. I think I found an easier/quicker way to do it this time, as last time I built a table to do it automatically, but it was a bit janky. This time it should be a little better looking, if not as functional.

As for the other book I’m working on, it’s moving along at a good pace. I’ve had no delays with it, which is nice. It grows, and thankfully I find inspiration each time I sit down to write. I’m sure it helps that I’m consuming books daily. It has been said, “If you don’t have time to read, you don’t have time to write.” Well, all my free time is for reading now, for the most part.

I haven’t really watched anything, or at least my consumption of such things, like anime, is way down. At least on my own. The co-author and I, when we aren’t working on things, have taken it upon ourselves to watch a number of anime. Dr. Stone has taken one of the highest spots for us, but that may just be because we are both fascinated by the idea of where one would start if you were dropped off into a new world, and yet had the skills and knowledge from our modern society. After watching the first few episodes we talked for several hours about what was done in the show, and what their next steps should be. It’s tons of fun.

Fire Force is gorgeous, so there’s that. We’ve also been watching the remake of Fruits Basket, and boy have they done a great job of it. I think there’s only been one episode where we weren’t entirely enthralled, but all I can say is that so far is Arisa Uotani is best girl, at least for me. Former delinquent, and all around tough girl. She loves Tohru, and is her best-friend. Her back-story is filled with emotion, and it was quite fun to find out more about her. I am looking forward to finding out more about her other friend Saki Hanajima, the goth girl with psychic powers. These two are my favorite from the show. I liked them immediately when they showed up in the first episode. Also it doesn’t hurt that the show has great character design and animation.

And now to this part. I’m not sure if I have much to add to the conversation, but there was a tragedy that happened to an animation studio. Kyoani, or Kyoto Animation. I won’t go into it, you can look it up if you don’t know already, but it was shockingly terrible. The reason I mention it, besides myself being an anime fan, is because some of my favorite shows have come from this studio. Violet Evergarden, a show that made me cry nearly every episode, was one. And just last night I watched A Silent Voice, a movie they made, and it was excellent. We lost many people who worked on many amazing animations, and it’s devastating to know they won’t be able to bring their visions to us anymore. A part of anime is gone with this loss, and that will affect us anime fans for a long time, not even mentioning all the family they leave behind. There’s nothing we can do, and that’s the hardest part. They’re gone, but I will strive not to forget, and I will continue to enjoy what they’ve made. Thank you Kyoani.

With that sad note, I think I shall take my leave. I continue to wish you all well, and hope your week is filled with happiness.

TTFN

What I’ve published

Walk On

Walk On Cover

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Outsider Trilogy

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Poetry

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Link to my author page on Amazon – http://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Or you can help me out on Patreon. Again, thank you. https://www.patreon.com/StevenOaks

Update: The book is 100% edited, and 99% formatted. The book cover is coming along. And I’m 41% into the new novel’s first draft.

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My Son

Greetings to you. I’m here, as you might surmise by the text you are reading. Now for me to try and write something you’d want to read, or at least list the things that are running through my head.

Today marks an anniversary. A birthday if you will. Ten years ago my son was born. The happiest day of my life, even with many wonderful things having happened before and after. The wonder I felt when I first saw him, and the crushing emotions that filled me when I first held him. I’d never felt anything like that before or since.

That happiness and fulfillment lasted the entire time he was with me. But as this is a tragedy, he was soon lost to me. The details of this I relive everyday, sometimes with such vividness that I find it hard to think of anything else, other times with detachment, touching that memory like a bruise, seeing how hard I can push it before it becomes too painful. But even with how hard it was to live life after, I’m still glad he was in my life, even as short a time as I had with him.

I credit him for my books. I’d always wanted to write, but I’d never taken the time to do so, other than the odd short story or idea that I’d work on in my head, or rarely in random notebooks. I write because it’s something I can create, and because he never will make anything. I write so that even if he never got the chance to do anything, at least he made a change in the world, even if it’s only me that he changed.

This is why I had listed today’s date as a possible day for the publication of my latest book. Even if I knew that wasn’t likely, there’s so much more to writing than just writing and editing, but we grow ever closer to releasing it. The cover is coming along, and the formatting should be finished soon. But in the end, all my books are because my son was in my life. I’m thankful that I had the chance to know him, and that makes the pain easier for me to deal with.

We all deal with loss differently. But we all have loss in our life. Thankfully most of you won’t have to feel the loss of a child, and for that I’m truly glad. I wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy, even if I had one. But we all lose someone we love. The only thing I can think to offer as a means to get through it would be that no matter what, even if you forget them somehow, they were there. Nothing can take away the past. If you focus on the negative this is a terrible thing to remember, but if you embrace all the good that came from it you can still smile. Smile for all the happy times you had, and make the world better because of it, even if it’s only better in the small corner of the world you call home.

With that, I shall leave you. I’m sorry it wasn’t a cheerful story to tell, though I hope it can help a little for anyone going through loss. I’m not the best at talking about emotions, but I wished to share in hopes that my story might help others.

May your week be filled with happiness, and if it’s not, then remember the good times, and try to make the world one in which you wish yourself and others to live.

TTFN

What I’ve published

Walk On

Walk On Cover

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Outsider Trilogy

Outsiders-Book-Cover-RGB-web-safe

Click here for a link to the book

Poetry

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Link to my author page on Amazon – http://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Or you can help me out on Patreon. Again, thank you. https://www.patreon.com/StevenOaks

Update: The book is 100% edited. And I’m 39% into the new novel’s first draft.

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Michigan Vacation

I took a bit of a vacation last week. Hence why my post was so short last Saturday. I wasn’t anywhere near home then. I was in Michigan. More specifically I was in Mackinaw City.

It was around a seven hour drive to get there, and for entertainment it was the BBC’s radio play for the Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy. Listening to one half hour spot at a time, with half an hour to an hour break just to take in the scenery. I have to say the road taken up there was beautiful, especially after entering Michigan.

You could see the change in the landscape slowly shift to more pines and larger hills. At one point I was surrounded by gigantic windmills, and if there hadn’t been a runner in the road with a police officer escorting them slowing down traffic I might have had to pull over just to get a better look.

When eventually arriving at the hotel that was booked, then given a key, I entered the room. It was right on the water front of Lake Huron and on the third floor I had a wonderful vantage point to look out onto the waters. At first the constant sloshing of the lake was annoying, but by the time I left I missed it immensely.

Being tired, but hungry, I visited their local Pub called O’Reilly’s Irish Pub, and was treated to a wonderful burger. I later returned that weekend and had my first poutine. Who would have thought gravy on fries with cheese curds could be so delicious?

Still tired, I took a nap until about 11:30pm. Waking up full of energy, there was but one thing to do. The Headlands Dark Sky park. Now I’ve always been a fan of staring up into the night sky, but even in the country where I grew up there were always city lights to deal with. Not so here. Once I got there I had no idea where to go. Luckily there were other cars there so I was fairly sure it was okay to be in the area. But as my eyes adjusted I spotted a few dim solar lights on the ground. Following them lead to a trail deeper into the woodland.

I had no idea how long it would take to get to the area for viewing, but I recalled it was somewhat around a .5 mile trail. Now if you want to go into this blind, which I highly recommend, skip what I’m about to impart.

Having a red flashlight is required, otherwise you can’t bring a light back with you. So I was scanning back and forth nervously because I had seen no one out here, and I wasn’t entirely sure I was supposed to be there. Then suddenly my light landed on a shape of a person. Because of my social phobia I tried to keep the light out of their face, but kept looking at them through the corner of my eye. As the red light glimmered dimly it looked as though it was moving, and on closer inspection it was a young girl holding a book.

She was just standing there, staring right back at me, and my heart leapt into my chest. There is nothing more frightening than a child in the dark just standing there looking at you.

But as I was catching my panicked breath, I realized it was a cardboard cut-out of a girl next to a sign with a list of things you might see at night. Irritated and exhilarated I continued on, and saw a few people, most without flashlights, somehow making their way back along the trail. Then the next cut-out of a person was spotted.

This time I didn’t panic, though it too seemed to appear out of the shadows. Several more were along the path, until after a turn off onto a gravel path instead of the paved one I’d been following led out into the open right on Lake Michigan. The beach that night was not crowded, as you might imagine on a Thursday at 1 in the morning. Still there were a few people staring up at the sky. I returned the following night, and it was much more crowded. Likely because I went earlier in the evening, and had no need of the flashlight until it was time to come back to the car.

All in all it too around 15 minutes to walk out there, and 15 minutes back. In the darkness I heard many things, including birds, but at one time it seemed as if something was stalking to the side. Possibly just a deer, but it could have been anything. With my heart racing, I made it to the car, and left quickly that second time.

On the second day there I went over the Mackinac Island. No cars are allowed here, and the only way to get there is by boat. Taking the Star Line ferry over was enjoyable as they take you under the Mackinac bridge, then to the island. The island is filled with horse-drawn carriages and quaint little shops that seem entirely interested in selling you fudge.

But getting away from the dock area you find the Fort, and beyond that a series of nearly secluded trails. Instead of doing the touristy thing of ridding behind a horse, or simply shopping, I took an interest in following whatever trail came to me first. This of course lead to me becoming a little lost, and I wandered out there for a couple of hours trying to get back. Luckily cellular service is still available, and finding a map with the trails named I made my way back into town. But not after checking out a few sights along the way.

Sugar Loaf rock is huge. It makes no sense. And it’s in the middle of the island. It looks like something that should be on the shore, but there it is, just standing there for all the world to see. That was when I finally figured out where I was, and was able to trace a path back to town, though I think I got my directions slightly wrong.

Back in town I grabbed another burger. Sensing a trend here? It was at Horn’s Gaslight Bar & Restaurant. It was good, and they were playing the right tunes. Classic rock all the way! Anyway the burger was decent, but not as good as at O’Reilly’s. And then it was time to wander around again until Star Line came back in another hour.

I just sat on the shore looking out in the bright sunshine while people did the same around me. The gentle clip clop of horses in the distance, and the mumbling of the crowd filled the air. It was a good day.

The ride back was similar to the first, though it was filled with a large group of children that apparently were on a school trip. Loud and annoying, but I was returned to land quickly, and back to the room to rest for the next day.

Saturday was mostly just a lazy day, filled with window shopping and walking. That day was chillier and windier, and threatened rain from sunrise on. An Italian restaurant was lunched at, and sadly was only mediocre at best. But right after I watched a movie at their little theatre. Cash only for a ticket, which surprised me, but an ATM was located a few blocks away.

Once the movie was over it was back to the room to finish relaxing before sleep, and the seven hour drive back home.

I miss Mackinac/Mackinaw. I feel like I finally found a place that feels like home. It was beautiful, relaxing, and just pleasant. If I strike it rich for some reason I might have to move there, or one of the surrounding towns/cities. I just want to live on the water now. Not an ocean, and not a small lake or river. I want to be on the Great Lakes.

Maybe one day I’ll retire up there. Writing my books with the sound of waves hitting the shore. As for now I’ve returned to Indiana. Not a horrible place at all, but I think my heart is in Michigan now.

 

What I’ve published

Outsider Trilogy

Outsiders-Book-Cover-RGB-web-safeClick here for a link to the book

Poetry

poems_front2

Link to my author page on Amazon – hhttp://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Or you can help me out on Patreon. Again, thank you. https://www.patreon.com/StevenOaks

Update: A few hundred words scattered into the new novel.

“There is never a time or place for true love. It happens accidentally, in a heartbeat, in a single flashing, throbbing moment.”
― Sarah Dessen

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Battered, but never broken

Well, here is what I didn’t talk about last week. I had laid down about 10 o’clock Friday night to sleep. Like usual I got up in the middle of the night to get a drink of water and use the restroom. What followed was not usual.

Tripping on the carpet that had crumpled itself in front of the toilet had me fall into the shower. My face was heading directly towards the faucet, and would have smashed it in. Luckily I’m fairly agile, and I rotated away to the side, but I was still falling, this time backwards. Crashing into the curtain I pulled each ring off the curtain pole, and would up smashing my head and back into the wall. Leaving a blood splatter, some hair, and perhaps some scalp in the process.

I laid there stunned for a few minutes, wondering if I was alright. After awhile of this I grew bored, and stood up. At least I had avoided damaging my face, but now I was concerned that I perhaps had concussed myself. Swaying slightly unsteadily I looked into the mirror to check for black eyes, a good signal of concussions, and found none there. Cursing such things, I went back to bed and tried to fall asleep again, not recommended for head injuries. Fortunately, or unfortunately for my own restfulness, I couldn’t get back to dreamland. Instead I stared at the ceiling for several hours, eventually giving up and picked up my tablet to read whatever it was I was reading the night before I wound up falling asleep.

Luckily I always have a backup of my books for whomever I’ve trusted for such things, so my latest book would have still seen the light of day, but I’m nowhere near finishing what I’m working on now. It’s been difficult getting into the right mindset to put words to page, but I’ve still worked on it, though only slightly since then.

May none of you have such things happen. But just in case, have a back up!

 

What I’ve published

Outsider Trilogy

Outsiders-Book-Cover-RGB-web-safeClick here for a link to the book

Poetry

poems_front2

Link to my author page on Amazon – hhttp://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Or you can help me out on Patreon. Again, thank you. https://www.patreon.com/StevenOaks

Update: A few hundred words scattered into the new novel, about to try again today.

“Accidents happen. Our bones shatter, our skin splits, our hearts break. We burn, we drown, we stay alive.”
― Moïra Fowley-Doyle

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The Age of Reason

Reason is the age?

Perhaps information is the stage

but reason comes only to play

to those who view the way

not just the path ahead

but the path behind

to see where we have followed

alone each time

The feet trod in the past

are not the ones that last

but the record of man

which written by hidden hand

misguides us all into thinking

things that may not be true

so trust not a word

unless you’ve discovered it yourself

reason is only singular

and it is to you that must find it

What I’ve published

Outsider Trilogy

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Poetry

poems_front2

Link to my author page on Amazon – hhttp://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Or you can help me out on Patreon. Again, thank you. https://www.patreon.com/StevenOaks

Update: 1,000 words of a new book written. Several pages edited for the yet unnamed novel.

“That which can be asserted without evidence, can be dismissed without evidence.”
― Christopher Hitchens

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To You

When you don’t speak, I worry.

When I can’t see you, I worry.

I’ve always thought we were okay

but it seems you’ve gone away.

I tried to share all that is me

but you didn’t like what you’ve seen

My words easily misinterpreted

my silences more so

I’ve only wanted affection and to help

but my sense of humor and my quirks

have always driven friends away

I will miss you

I hope you at least will remember me fondly

as time makes our distant divide grow ever greater

What I’ve published

Outsider Trilogy

Outsiders-Book-Cover-RGB-web-safeClick here for a link to the book

Poetry

poems_front2

Link to my author page on Amazon – hhttp://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Or you can help me out on Patreon. Again, thank you. https://www.patreon.com/StevenOaks

Update: 1,000 words of a new book written. Several pages edited for the yet unnamed novel.

“True regret is knowing you missed your only opportunity to be simply a good friend to someone that was exactly like you.”
― Shannon L. Alder

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Two years writing a blog

Well it has been two years since I started this blog. Things have certainly changed since then. I’ve published three novels, and one poetry book. I’ve written yet another book, and I’m working on getting it edited now. Also I’m in the process of writing yet another book as well. Also I’ve a job I’m happy enough going in to most days. Something I’d never expected to happen.

I feel proud of these accomplishments, and yet I don’t think I’ll ever want to be satisfied. I hope to have no day come where I say, “Well, that’s it. I did everything I wanted to.” I’m not saying I don’t want to feel happy about what I’m doing, all I’m saying is that I never want a time to come where I’ve no goals left.

Luckily writing always gives me a goal. Either it being writing a new story I’ve thought of, or just simply trying to get better at this craft. Also it gives me another goal. A goal that I’m not too fond of. That being trying to advertise myself and my books.

I think to myself, how can I let people know about my books? These books that I’m proud of, and I like, without sounding like I’m full of myself, or worse, sounding annoying? I don’t go out of my way in my day-to-day life to let anyone know I’ve done this, but it does come up. Usually I only talk about it for a few minutes, unless someone seems interested. Then I might go on a little more. I hope I’ve interpreted their interest correctly because I always worry about sounding like I’m trying to push it on people.

Yes I feel very accomplished by what I’ve done, but I think most people could do similar if they just gave themselves the time to do it. Heck, I’d like it everyone at least wrote one book in their life. We all generally have some tale that has been building up in us. May it be just a retelling of our lives, or maybe a concept that can’t be easily put across without a story, I think the world would be better if there were a book by each person so we might come to a better understanding of each other.

And for this reason I’m unsure how to go about alerting more people that there is a Science Fiction series here to read. I would like to think it is interesting, and a little different from any other. There are elements you can find in it that reflect other novels I’ve read, but there is a pace to it that is unlike anything else I’ve read. The comments I’ve gotten suggest it is hard to put down, and in some way is almost a relaxing thing to read.

While there are elements to overcome, the protagonist is able to do so without worry or panic. It all flows together, and this is kinda how I see challenges, though I’m sure I panic a little more. Not a Mary Sue, but a way a person might, if they were able, to win the day without panic. Using logic and compassion is the way I say. Be mindful, and care for others. That might even be the real point of the story.

What I’ve published

Outsider Trilogy

Outsiders-Book-Cover-RGB-web-safeClick here for a link to the book

Poetry

poems_front2

Link to my author page on Amazon – hhttp://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Or you can help me out on Patreon. Again, thank you. https://www.patreon.com/StevenOaks

Update: 1,000 words of a new book written. Several pages edited for the yet unnamed novel.

“Far away there in the sunshine are my highest aspirations. I may not reach them, but I can look up and see their beauty, believe in them, and try to follow where they lead.”
― Louisa May Alcott

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Journal Entry

Day #12,982

My daily struggle to fit in with these humans is becoming interesting. When talking of relationships all I hear is that people are surprised at how I’ve been able to for the most part maintain a friendly relationship with anyone I’ve been lucky enough to spend prolong periods of time with. It is apparently so anomalous that it has become standard fare for comedic situations to put a husband and wife at odds instead of them trying to work together.

People find it strange if I were to say something absurd to a partner that partner wouldn’t just immediately smack me. I’m not saying this has never happened, but I think it would be strange with a person I’d like to spend time with. Though I certainly can be annoying, at times I try to be, it is more for comedic effect and not to illicit a physical attack.

What I’m getting at is that several people I talk with seem to think there is an active war between the genders. A male may say something and apparently a female is supposed to become offended at a request for favor. The reverse seems to be true as a male isn’t suppose to be docile towards a woman and agree to any demands. What the heck? If you are in a relationship you are in a partnership. This means you must talk about all needs, wants, and desires. To hide them from each other would be a silly notion and could only lead to such bad blood that I see in these so-called couples in television. In fact the only healthy relationship that pops into my mind from TV is from the Adams Family.

Morticia and Gomez adore each other, and jump to act to please one another. They love their children, and encourage them constantly to go out and do what makes them happy. It just so happens they are all morbid individuals, but that doesn’t take away from the love they show each other.

There is a certain amount of compromises that need to be given when in a relationship. No one is so perfectly matched that there isn’t something that would cause a partner to be upset if continued. You just have to evaluate if the other person is worth the sacrifices you might have to make to be with them.

I’m not talking physical beauty when I talk about wanting to be with another. That can fade. I’m talking of the joy you get from being with them. If being with them isn’t a positive thing, for the most part as we all have times when things are bad, then you might need to end it. Don’t waste their time, and don’t waste yours on a relationship that isn’t going to last a lifetime. I’ve never been about trying to find a person for the moment, so take that as you will. I’ve only ever desired to be with people who I think I could spend my entire life with, and do that happily.

What I’ve learned from young love is that it is completely irrational, and mostly based on whoever is nearby, and of course who you find physically attractive. Nothing wrong with that usually, but don’t think that is a basis for a long-lasting relationship. You have to share a common enjoyment in things. Be it hobbies or activities, and you have to enjoy doing these things with them. Personally I love to talk about strange and unusual things like politics, sex, religion, and philosophy. You get involved in a conversation like that with me I’ll be immediately charmed. Hence my enjoyment of foreign media, or dark comedies. They look at the world differently than I’ve seen.

Examples of such things would be Rick and Morty, Venture Brothers, and many anime targeted at more adult audiences. I’m not talking about porn here, I’m talking about shows that aren’t animated for children. And realizing I said animated and my list only contains animated shows I suppose I’ll have to list a few others. Sherlock, Doctor Who, and Supernatural. They can be dark, they can be funny, but what they aren’t is taking the easy way out of a story. Well, besides the last season of Doctor Who… there were a couple of good episodes, but mostly it felt flat to me.

In the end I’m just surprised to see all these people apparently unhappy with who they are with. Are we just so scared to be alone that we latch on to whoever is nearby? Alone isn’t a bad thing, though it can be difficult at times. But it most certainly helps you get to know yourself. You really should try to do that before committing to another.

I can’t suggest a length of time for such self-reflection, but a year should do it. Maybe a month or so is all you need, but we all need to explore what it is that makes us up before we try to understand another.

Love is a complicated thing, one that I’m unsure that can ever be expressed through words. The closest definition for me came from an author that has influenced my life greatly. He says “Love is the condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own.” – Heinlein. And I’m going to have to agree with it, though it seems to missing the flavor of the emotion.

Don’t stay with those who can’t, or who refuse to try to make you happy.

 

What I’ve published

Outsider Trilogy

Outsiders-Book-Cover-RGB-web-safeClick here for a link to the book

Poetry

poems_front2

Link to my author page on Amazon – hhttp://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Or you can help me out on Patreon. Again, thank you. https://www.patreon.com/StevenOaks

Update: 1,000 words of a new book written. Several pages edited for the yet unnamed novel.

“It’s almost if you actively look for love you won’t find it. You just have to recognize it when it finds you.” – Steven Oaks

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Random Anxiety

I feel like I’m finally getting the swing of my new position. Things are going smoothly, and for that I’m thankful. I was feeling just a little overwhelmed a few days, and not having a car I wasn’t able to stay over to finish some of the things that came in later. Luckily I’m able to cope with the load now.

However, there was one day this week when I seemed to have lost control over my own emotions. I think I’ll call it an anxiety attack. Everything was making me feel anxious, even breathing. It happened on the way to work, and when I got there it only got worse. Now I recall feeling something similar last year when I was drinking too much coffee, so perhaps it was just that again. But I didn’t drink any more than usual, so I’m unsure. I settled down around noon, but for four hours I was in extreme panic.

Speaking of anxiety, I did my taxes earlier today. Searching out random paper work after you’ve moved months ago didn’t help, but I filed. It took an hour to do all of it, but it went smoothly enough. Had I not moved I would have had a bigger return, but meh, it was costing too much to live there. On the plus side I learned that I more than tripled the income I’m getting from my books last year. If I can do that again I think I’ll be doing very well. Well being that I’m making progress.

I’ve a couple of books lined up for this year, so maybe that’ll help. I’m still writing one, but the other is going through edits. You might already know that if you follow me here. Things are progressing, and my latest book is flowing much better these days. I had an issue a couple of weeks ago where I didn’t know what I wanted to do with the story, but now it’s all flowing.

I hope you all continue to have wonderful weeks, and I’ll talk to you soon.

 

 

What I’ve published

Outsider Trilogy

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Poetry

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Link to my author page on Amazon – hhttp://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Or you can help me out on Patreon. Again, thank you. https://www.patreon.com/StevenOaks

Update: 1,000 words of a new book written. Several pages edited for the yet unnamed novel.

“If you want to conquer the anxiety of life, live in the moment, live in the breath.”
― Amit Ray

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And another week passes

The new week brought similar challenges to the last. This time I felt more comfortable, and things went much smoother… for the most part.

Edits now are being done Saturday night, and or Sunday morning for one of my books. It’s going well, and we should have it all wrapped up within the next few months. I’m not sure of an exact time as some days we go through so much, but other days we can only get a few pages done. However it is progressing.

Work is still interesting, and I’m feeling more confident in the position. Nothing else to be said about this, save I’m getting along with all I work with… which seems to be normal for me these days.

I still haven’t found a vehicle in my price range that appears reliable enough that I’m willing to part with the hard-earned money I’m saving up for this venture. But at least I haven’t wasted it on junk. Perhaps in the next few months I’ll have enough to afford something better than now, I just hope my ride continues to be so reliable.

I’m getting an idea for something else to do on here, but I’m unsure if I’ll have the time to do it. I don’t want to have it eat into the time I spend editing and creating these posts. Nor am I sure I’ll have the time during the week. We’ll see if I can work something out. I know I’m being vague, but I don’t want to dash hopes if I can’t make it work. Lets just say I may have more to say.

In the end I spent today writing some interesting scenes, this time with dialogue for the first time in this book. It’s not complicated or anything, it just feels right. I can’t wait to have someone read through it. But it might be awhile before I have the first draft ready for some editing.

 

What I’ve published

Outsider Trilogy

Outsiders-Book-Cover-RGB-web-safeClick here for a link to the book

Poetry

poems_front2

Link to my author page on Amazon – hhttp://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Or you can help me out on Patreon. Again, thank you. https://www.patreon.com/StevenOaks

Update: 1,000 words of a new book written. Several pages edited for the yet unnamed novel.

“Of course motivation is not permanent. But then, neither is bathing; but it is something you should do on a regular basis.”
― Zig Ziglar

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