Anime, and Our Loss

Hello again. Here I am, writing another blog post. What a weird thing to do, though I suppose it’s something like a journal. Every week I write down what I’m thinking about, and I suppose I could always look back upon it. I rarely do, so maybe it’s just another thing that helps me write.

Anyway, what have I been up to? Hrm, I’ve read another eight books since last Monday. I think when I read ten books it was because a couple of those were of the shorter variety, still eight is a decent number.

I formatted the book, for the most part. The only thing that remains on that front is to link chapters to the index. A frustrating task sometimes, especially with the number of chapters we have in this book, at least in the way I did it last time. I think I found an easier/quicker way to do it this time, as last time I built a table to do it automatically, but it was a bit janky. This time it should be a little better looking, if not as functional.

As for the other book I’m working on, it’s moving along at a good pace. I’ve had no delays with it, which is nice. It grows, and thankfully I find inspiration each time I sit down to write. I’m sure it helps that I’m consuming books daily. It has been said, “If you don’t have time to read, you don’t have time to write.” Well, all my free time is for reading now, for the most part.

I haven’t really watched anything, or at least my consumption of such things, like anime, is way down. At least on my own. The co-author and I, when we aren’t working on things, have taken it upon ourselves to watch a number of anime. Dr. Stone has taken one of the highest spots for us, but that may just be because we are both fascinated by the idea of where one would start if you were dropped off into a new world, and yet had the skills and knowledge from our modern society. After watching the first few episodes we talked for several hours about what was done in the show, and what their next steps should be. It’s tons of fun.

Fire Force is gorgeous, so there’s that. We’ve also been watching the remake of Fruits Basket, and boy have they done a great job of it. I think there’s only been one episode where we weren’t entirely enthralled, but all I can say is that so far is Arisa Uotani is best girl, at least for me. Former delinquent, and all around tough girl. She loves Tohru, and is her best-friend. Her back-story is filled with emotion, and it was quite fun to find out more about her. I am looking forward to finding out more about her other friend Saki Hanajima, the goth girl with psychic powers. These two are my favorite from the show. I liked them immediately when they showed up in the first episode. Also it doesn’t hurt that the show has great character design and animation.

And now to this part. I’m not sure if I have much to add to the conversation, but there was a tragedy that happened to an animation studio. Kyoani, or Kyoto Animation. I won’t go into it, you can look it up if you don’t know already, but it was shockingly terrible. The reason I mention it, besides myself being an anime fan, is because some of my favorite shows have come from this studio. Violet Evergarden, a show that made me cry nearly every episode, was one. And just last night I watched A Silent Voice, a movie they made, and it was excellent. We lost many people who worked on many amazing animations, and it’s devastating to know they won’t be able to bring their visions to us anymore. A part of anime is gone with this loss, and that will affect us anime fans for a long time, not even mentioning all the family they leave behind. There’s nothing we can do, and that’s the hardest part. They’re gone, but I will strive not to forget, and I will continue to enjoy what they’ve made. Thank you Kyoani.

With that sad note, I think I shall take my leave. I continue to wish you all well, and hope your week is filled with happiness.

TTFN

What I’ve published

Walk On

Walk On Cover

click here for a link to the book

Outsider Trilogy

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Click here for a link to the book

Poetry

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Link to my author page on Amazon – http://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Or you can help me out on Patreon. Again, thank you. https://www.patreon.com/StevenOaks

Update: The book is 100% edited, and 99% formatted. The book cover is coming along. And I’m 41% into the new novel’s first draft.

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My Son

Greetings to you. I’m here, as you might surmise by the text you are reading. Now for me to try and write something you’d want to read, or at least list the things that are running through my head.

Today marks an anniversary. A birthday if you will. Ten years ago my son was born. The happiest day of my life, even with many wonderful things having happened before and after. The wonder I felt when I first saw him, and the crushing emotions that filled me when I first held him. I’d never felt anything like that before or since.

That happiness and fulfillment lasted the entire time he was with me. But as this is a tragedy, he was soon lost to me. The details of this I relive everyday, sometimes with such vividness that I find it hard to think of anything else, other times with detachment, touching that memory like a bruise, seeing how hard I can push it before it becomes too painful. But even with how hard it was to live life after, I’m still glad he was in my life, even as short a time as I had with him.

I credit him for my books. I’d always wanted to write, but I’d never taken the time to do so, other than the odd short story or idea that I’d work on in my head, or rarely in random notebooks. I write because it’s something I can create, and because he never will make anything. I write so that even if he never got the chance to do anything, at least he made a change in the world, even if it’s only me that he changed.

This is why I had listed today’s date as a possible day for the publication of my latest book. Even if I knew that wasn’t likely, there’s so much more to writing than just writing and editing, but we grow ever closer to releasing it. The cover is coming along, and the formatting should be finished soon. But in the end, all my books are because my son was in my life. I’m thankful that I had the chance to know him, and that makes the pain easier for me to deal with.

We all deal with loss differently. But we all have loss in our life. Thankfully most of you won’t have to feel the loss of a child, and for that I’m truly glad. I wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy, even if I had one. But we all lose someone we love. The only thing I can think to offer as a means to get through it would be that no matter what, even if you forget them somehow, they were there. Nothing can take away the past. If you focus on the negative this is a terrible thing to remember, but if you embrace all the good that came from it you can still smile. Smile for all the happy times you had, and make the world better because of it, even if it’s only better in the small corner of the world you call home.

With that, I shall leave you. I’m sorry it wasn’t a cheerful story to tell, though I hope it can help a little for anyone going through loss. I’m not the best at talking about emotions, but I wished to share in hopes that my story might help others.

May your week be filled with happiness, and if it’s not, then remember the good times, and try to make the world one in which you wish yourself and others to live.

TTFN

What I’ve published

Walk On

Walk On Cover

click here for a link to the book

Outsider Trilogy

Outsiders-Book-Cover-RGB-web-safe

Click here for a link to the book

Poetry

poems_front2

Link to my author page on Amazon – http://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Or you can help me out on Patreon. Again, thank you. https://www.patreon.com/StevenOaks

Update: The book is 100% edited. And I’m 39% into the new novel’s first draft.

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Reading, Finalizing, and Aging

Greetings y’all. Time for another installment of “I don’t know what to talk about.”

So this week was filled with fun. And by fun I mean yet again a tire went flat on my car. Yay, right? Well luckily the spare was holding air this time, and while I did have to drive much slower on my way to work it didn’t impede me too much. The tire was eventually replaced, though that apparently is a hassle when it comes to getting them. They had to be ordered specially before they could be installed. And of course the price is always high for such things as tires, especially when you aren’t expecting it.

Otherwise it was just a normal week for me. I read… way too much I’m sure. Ten books since last Monday, a bit much I think. My appetite is voracious I suppose, which has gotten me up to 104 books read this year so far. I wonder what my final count for the year will be. I love Kindle Unlimited…

So anyway, the book is basically done, as I’ve said before. The cover is looking good so far, though the artist is thinking of going a different direction as the last time I spoke with them they were worried it wouldn’t look good as a thumb nail, though I think it looks outstanding in its full resolution. The synopsis still needs to be worked on, though I’ve run through a few things myself. The co-author and I need to finalize that, and maybe I can persuade them to do their own author’s note, mine already being mostly finished. I kinda need to have all of the written things together before I can finish up on formatting, but it’s all almost ready to be published. However the way things are I’m thinking August for the release now.

Side note, my hair is growing thin… Sigh, the troubles of being a guy. I’ve had long hair since around 2000, but it looks as though it’s about time for that to change. Though I’ll be keeping the long beard, the shaved head look will be upon me shortly. I hope I don’t have a weird shaped skull underneath all this hair. But luckily I like hats, so even if I look like some odd alien under my head of hair, a hat should hide that. Ah, aging, why must you do this to me? At least I had a couple of decades to enjoy having long hair, even if it was a hassle now and again, I thought I looked good with it. Ah, to be able to be vain for life. If only, heh. Oh well, change is the only constant.

Anyhow, I hope your week has been wonderful, and may you have yet another glorious one.

TTFN

What I’ve published

Walk On

Walk On Cover

click here for a link to the book

Outsider Trilogy

Outsiders-Book-Cover-RGB-web-safe

Click here for a link to the book

Poetry

poems_front2

Link to my author page on Amazon – http://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Or you can help me out on Patreon. Again, thank you. https://www.patreon.com/StevenOaks

Update: The book is 100% edited. And I’m 37% into the new novel’s first draft.

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Edits Done, and some D&D

Well hello there. What brings you by? Oh, it’s just been another week. But wait, I have things to tell you.

So, first off, I’m happy to report that the book the co-author and I’ve been working on for the last two years, and several months, is finally finished. I should clarify, the edits are done, therefore no more of that anymore. We still need to format, get a cover together, and work on any afterword or such. From what I know, I believe it will be out sometime in late July or early August. If I have my way I’d say August 5th, for reasons, heh. Or if everything comes together quicker than I expect, July 22nd. Sorry for the vagueness, but the co-author and I have other things that take our time. But don’t worry, when we can we’ll be working to make sure you all can read it soon. It’s been a long journey, but I think it’ll be worth it.

Synopsis forthcoming, but for now the Title- You Must Be Drunk-

That’ll be your teaser.

Anyway, the other thing I wanted to talk about was my first real D&D experience. This weekend I was invited over to my friend’s house. He DM’d, and along with his wife, another friend of mine, and the co-author we set out on our journey. Of course it all started in a tavern, but things didn’t play out like I think anyone expected.

The tavern-keeper had a rat problem in the basement, a traditional first quest, and was offering a reward for clearing them out. I, being a bard, really didn’t feel like fighting, as I was already set up to get free room and board for playing some music. The anti-social Firbolg cleric, the Timid Teifling Monk, and the haughty elven wizard on the other hand were looking for some coin. Unfortunately the Firbolg took the request literally, and went to the basement and used his animal speaking ability to tell the rats that they should leave or they’d be killed by someone soon.

They rushed out in an understandable hurry, but unfortunately for them the Elf didn’t want to lose out on the reward, as no one was in a party yet, and rushed after them, cutting them off with a summoned familiar, a cat, and cast burning hands, roasting the majority of them. Thus earning the name Chaos Angel, or Fire Elf, by yours truly, the gnome bard.

However the tavern-keeper was overjoyed, and rushed out to collect the burnt bodies. Then offered us all some stew and coin as a reward. All the while making it obvious to my character that he’d make sure I’d get the best food and room, implying heavily that the stew he was serving to the others was made of rat. Why was he being so friendly to me? Well, I might be overly charming to barkeeps, and having exceedingly high charisma didn’t hurt either, heh. I think he was on the verge of inviting me to bed.

Anyway, another elf showed up and tried to give us a quest to kill the mayor of a town nearby, but none of us were really having it. Save the Tiefling, who accepted when she was told he was a bad man and tyrant. She’s very trusting. The Firbolg on the other hand simply wasn’t having it, and went to bed. The Elf and I wanted to get paid first, and after some very poor charisma rolls, we eventually got him to give us 40% of the reward up front, which we split between us two, without letting the others know.

For some reason though, the Firbolg started casting spells in the night towards the Teifling, and a disembodied voice kept speaking quietly in Infernal to her. Which since she is afraid of her demonic nature taking over, started scaring her into believing she was going mad. As the night went on he kept it up, and the poor monk, who really is just a sweet and innocent thing, blamed herself.

Thus enriched, we went to bed, only to set off the next day towards the town. We all decided to travel together, though none of us have yet to party up. Arriving in town, I of course headed to the closest tavern, and set myself up as entertainment, enjoying free room and board again, while the others wandered about trying to figure out the lay of the land.

While that’s not everything, that’s basically what happened. I didn’t mention the Elf stealing the Teiflings map that she’d been working on, only to return it and receive thanks for finding it. That Teifling really is too innocent for this world. But yeah, it was a ton of fun, and I’m looking forward to the next session.

It took more than an hour before we were ready to play, even with us all rolling characters before we arrived, but now we should be able to jump right into it. I think this’ll be a fun campaign.

Well, that’s about it for now. I hope you all have a good week. Until next time,

TTFN

What I’ve published

Walk On

Walk On Cover

click here for a link to the book

Outsider Trilogy

Outsiders-Book-Cover-RGB-web-safe

Click here for a link to the book

Poetry

poems_front2

Link to my author page on Amazon – http://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Or you can help me out on Patreon. Again, thank you. https://www.patreon.com/StevenOaks

Update: The book is 100% edited. And I’m 35% into the new novel’s first draft.

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Reading, Writing, and Gaming

Howdy folks. I’m back again, as usual. Aren’t you just all plum excited?

Nothing much to report, save the co-author and I are relatively close to finishing up our final edits. We’ll likely finish up with another session or two, so things are right on track. Afterwards we’ll need to finalize the cover, and format the book itself. Shouldn’t take too much, at least formatting. It’s been mostly done as we went. Ah, and then we need to work on the hard part, the description. Not something I can say I’m good at. I’ll likely lean on them a bit. It’s hard for me to write one, as I don’t want to spoil anything at all, and yet you need to know what you’re getting into I suppose, heh.

Writing my new book is going well. I’m a third through the first draft, for one. However, as I write and think about this book I realized I was missing something. Motivation. Not for myself, I want to write, but for the characters. Now I’m not saying that I didn’t have a goal in mind for each character, I just mean that something was missing.

While reading, which I’ve said before I’m doing an awful lot of, I noticed that there were emotional scenes that really got to me. As to the reason they did, well, they were based upon what the character was going through, and their emotional core. Heh, whoops. I seem to forget that people have them, and was writing a logical minded individual, mostly without emotion. The kind of person that I present myself as, at least in public. I forgot there’s usually some emotion going behind each action. But luckily I’m taking that into account now as I write, and will be doing a bit of reworking on the first part of this book. Don’t worry, the co-author made sure these emotions were taken care of in the book we’re editing, I just don’t think to write them on my own… I guess.

So I guess what I’m saying is, don’t forget the emotional attributes your character will have. Otherwise your main protagonist won’t be entertaining… or at least they’ll be a boring emotionless robot. I got a big list of motivations now for mine, and the side characters too. Yay me. Of course they’ll have goals, but they’ll be set by their emotions. So remember that. It’s important. But I’m sure you all knew that, I’m just the weird one that tries to not let them rule me.

Um, hrm… I finished 6 books since last week, so there is that. Not sure if that means anything to anyone, but I think it’s neat. The only thing is that it’ll likely get harder to find new books to read here soon, since I finished reading everything yet another author has written.

When I try to explain that reading, at least the way I do it, is an addiction, anyone I talk to seems to wave it away. They mostly say things like, “Isn’t reading a good thing? How can it be an addiction?” Well, I’m not really doing anything else, save writing. I’m not even watching shows I kind of want to. I wanted to finish up Jessica Jones, and yet I’ve mostly haven’t felt the desire to. It’s not a bad show or anything, I’d just rather be reading. But since there’s a game I have on my phone, one that I’ve been playing for years, that has events that renew early in the morning I tend to put up an episode while I do my daily’s. Since I read on the phone, I can’t read and play the game at the same time. Unless I break out the tablet, which I’ve done a few times. Mostly I run the game and do dishes or make some food instead of watching anything, as it only takes a half-hour or so to work on the events.

I don’t even know why I keep playing. I’m already max level, but there’s so many other things to do in the game. Just in case you’re interested the game is called Summoners War. I like the art style, and the gameplay can be left to itself while you run around doing other things, especially at higher levels. Took me awhile to realize that. I like it, but it could just be because I invested so much of my time into it. I’m not the best, but I’d like to think I’m decent… heh. But it’s mostly up to your monsters and how you rune them.

Anyway, enough of all that. I hope you all find something new and exciting in your life. May you all find things you love doing, and enjoy working at it. Have a great week.

TTFN

What I’ve published

Walk On

Walk On Cover

click here for a link to the book

Outsider Trilogy

Outsiders-Book-Cover-RGB-web-safe

Click here for a link to the book

Poetry

poems_front2

Link to my author page on Amazon – http://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Or you can help me out on Patreon. Again, thank you. https://www.patreon.com/StevenOaks

Update: The book is 93% edited. And I’m 33% into the new novel’s first draft.

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