As the Draft comes to an End

I almost didn’t stop myself from finishing this book today. I think I’m at the last part, unless a prologue seems to fit. Sadly worldly things are making me unfocused, so I want to be in a better state of mind before putting the finishing touches on this draft. However things are moving forward, which I suppose is good.

I did several things today, and I hope they bear fruit. By the end of the day I hope to have something finally taken care of, then I can focus on the next step in my life. I’m being vague because while I’m not a superstitious person by nature, I somehow will never risk a jinx. I’ve done this for years, and it seems to work, though that of course is just chance. But I have hopes for this venture.

However September looks to be one full of issues. I’ve looked for something, and have yet to find anything quite right. Either too expensive, or dangerous, nothing seems to fit. If I’m unable to find it, I’ll be forced to live in a way that is painful. I assume most people try to not have pain in their lives, and I’m the same. But maybe in the end it’ll be a learning experience. It’s difficult to think that way when you live through such moments, but in reflection I hope to.

Here’s to each of you who strive to move forward in life. I hope to be there along side you.

What I’ve published

Outsider Trilogy

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Poetry

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Link to my author page on Amazon – hhttp://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Or you can help me out on Patreon. Again, thank you. https://www.patreon.com/StevenOaks

Update: 2,378 words written for the newest novel.

“Life is pain, highness. Anyone who says differently is selling something.”
― William Goldman

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Writing while anxious

I predict with a few more days of writing the entire first draft will be finished. I was able to, eventually, get myself writing today, and I think I did a decent job outlining what needed to be. However, I have other things on my mind.

Things keep getting more complicated in my life, though not due to individuals. So don’t go thinking any of you are causing any stress. I just had a large day yesterday with little sleep, and perhaps that’s carrying over into today. That and I drank way too much caffeine today so I’d have the energy to write. While effective, it leaves me feeling anxious.

Once more I succumbed to the use of coffee. I thought I made it weak, but apparently not enough when it is in conjunction with tea. I need my tea to write, at least I have used it since I began this path. At least I got some good writing in today, but I hope to have the editors back in the near future. I’m not sure how much longer they’ll be available to me, what with schedule changes imminent.

At least I’m satisfied with what they’ve done so far, and as I’ve said they’ve gotten more than 25% through the book. That of course is an estimate based upon how much more I’ll write, but maybe I’ll go mad one day and write several hundred more pages. Probably not though. At most it should be 10,000 words, another 10 working days, but I think I only need maybe 3-5 thousand words more.

So back to a task not based upon writing I go. See you next post!

What I’ve published

Outsider Trilogy

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Poetry

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Link to my author page on Amazon – hhttp://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Or you can help me out on Patreon. Again, thank you. https://www.patreon.com/StevenOaks

Update: 1,105 words written for the newest novel.

“To venture causes anxiety, but not to venture is to lose one’s self…. And to venture in the highest is precisely to be conscious of one’s self.”
― Søren Kierkegaard

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An End Will Come

The end draws near. A closing scene rushes to fill the void of my story. So close I could grasp it, I went beyond in a frenzy to finish what needed to be told.

A scene was written, and a struggle ensued. Between everyone I knew, a fight that could only end as predicted in pages before. What is there left to say but what must be? And the final words will be written, and a chapter will come to a close. The adventure of friends and loved ones will end, just as in life. But fate, if such a thing can be trusted, might give a little light. I wait to see what will come to pass, unsure of how such a world will see fit to conclude.

Yet for me the story repeats. I must read again what was written, with eyes not my own by my side. Corrections, and changes to make the sentences shine, editors as always along for the ride. More than a quarter we are already through, and with vigour they read on, as I do too.

As the hesitant touches I made in the beginning find themselves cast aside for more sure reading, we press on. And yet more days will come and go as I read again what has come before. Making my own changes to those made by others, the words read better with each correction. The rough draft of the past becomes something more real, and takes on the life I envisioned oh so long ago.

I wait for the day when this vision will shine, to stand tall with all creations I make, present and future. Be it something worthy, be it something good. All I hope for is a story. A story that is as sturdy as wood. Fit together from pieces of my past, and dreams that I have withstood.

What I’ve published

Outsider Trilogy

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Poetry

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Link to my author page on Amazon – hhttp://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Or you can help me out on Patreon. Again, thank you. https://www.patreon.com/StevenOaks

Update: 1,453 words written for the newest novel.

“Ends are not bad things, they just mean that something else is about to begin. And there are many things that don’t really end, anyway, they just begin again in a new way. Ends are not bad and many ends aren’t really an ending; some things are never-ending.”
― C. JoyBell C.

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Chained Heart

With one look she tears at the heart

with a single word she rips me apart

Kindness and beauty are her throne

and through the window of her eyes it’s shown

An ache deep inside

never wanting to be apart

and yet never able to give my heart

The world has crushed me

and life has weighed me down

I can’t open the tomb

the lock can’t be found

Try as I might to wrench it free

this is something that’ll never be

I yearn to set myself loose

to show my love

to show who I choose

but again my emotional turmoil has locked my heart

and I’m at a loss where to start

What I’ve published

Outsider Trilogy

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Poetry

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Link to my author page on Amazon – hhttp://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Or you can help me out on Patreon. Again, thank you. https://www.patreon.com/StevenOaks

Update: 1,046 words written for the newest novel.

“Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation.”
― Kahlil Gibran

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My D&D first time.

This weekend I visited my friends house once more. He’s about an hour and a half away from my own home, but I try to make it up there about once a month.

I had introduced him to the Baldur’s Gate series many years ago, and recently he purchased the android version. Having grown to enjoy the environment, and the background mechanics of the game, he thought it would be amusing to play some pen and paper D&D.

I’ve never played D&D before, save for those computer based games where you don’t need to write everything down. We all rolled characters, and I wound up with a Bard Teifling male named Doluipus. It took at least an hour for me and another friend to decide and make our characters. Since he was going to be our Dungeun Master, we rolled two characters apiece. My alt was a half-ogre barbarian girl named Gung. Making up their back-stories was tons of fun, and even our banter during game play was amusing.

We ran into four goblins, and I killed the first two with one spell, Thunder Clap. I was rewarded a few extra xp for that, and my alt killed the other two with her great axe. It took along time to get through even this first encounter, so we called it quits for the night. However, we woke up the next day and after looting the area, we wound up with my friend running head long into an encounter he could have avoided, and nearly alerted every goblin in the area to our presence with some sort of extremely loud spell. I think he wanted to get that additional xp award that I had. Sadly, I had to rush in and kill them myself again.

All in all it was an interesting time, but I think it’ll get better if we decide to continue our campaign. We all need to get used to such a different style of game, and I’m excited to keep it going.

What I’ve published

Outsider Trilogy

Outsiders-Book-Cover-RGB-web-safeClick here for a link to the book

Poetry

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Link to my author page on Amazon – hhttp://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Or you can help me out on Patreon. Again, thank you. https://www.patreon.com/StevenOaks

Update: 1,009 words written for the newest novel.

“You are not entering this world in the usual manner, for you are setting forth to be a Dungeon Master. Certainly there are stout fighters, mighty magic-users, wily thieves, and courageous clerics who will make their mark in the magical lands of D&D adventure. You however, are above even the greatest of these, for as DM you are to become the Shaper of the Cosmos. It is you who will give form and content to the all the universe. You will breathe life into the stillness, giving meaning and purpose to all the actions which are to follow.”
― Gary Gygax

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Automatic Editor?

Just because I’ve been thinking about editing lately, I’ve wondered what kind of software was out there. Not that I hate having a person looking at my work, and helping me edit, but I thought maybe some sort of A.I might have become available that can edit. What I’ve found was interesting, but not exactly what I was looking for.

Mostly they seem to go through your entire text and try to outline what words you overuse, and the use of crutch words like ‘had’. Not exactly what I’m looking for. I suppose it would take a true understanding of what was written to edit successfully, but I might utilize some of the tools out there.

I of course already use spell-check and grammar-check, but that doesn’t always come up with proper fixes. Especially grammar. I know I over use commas, and it can assist in that, but in dialogue where a person is talking naturally it can fail. Mostly I don’t run into errors like that, and those that I do are corrected properly, however there are certain phrases in the English language we use, and it doesn’t like those.

While I’m sure one day a computer will be able to turn out entertaining novels, even in the style of long deceased authors, what I want right now is a competent artificial editor, preferably free since I’m not a rich man. It would make turning out a well edited piece of work less time consuming than it is when we have to rely on a person’s schedule.

I even looked at what Watson was up to, and what I was able to find was something that only analysed tone. Certainly insightful to my own work, but I’m not sure how much I  would get out of it. Mostly it seems you receive tally marks instead of any insight.

So I suppose I’ll continue using what I have been. Spell and grammar-check, a good thesaurus, and a human for an editor.

What I’ve published

Outsider Trilogy

Outsiders-Book-Cover-RGB-web-safeClick here for a link to the book

Poetry

poems_front2

Link to my author page on Amazon – hhttp://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Or you can help me out on Patreon. Again, thank you. https://www.patreon.com/StevenOaks

Update: 1,181 words written for the newest novel.

“You have to give an editor something to change, or he gets frustrated. After he pees in it himself, he likes the flavor much better, so he buys it.”
― Robert A. Heinlein

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Edits begin, but still writing

Monday evening I had someone over to help edit the first part of my latest book. I haven’t worked with them previously at this, and it took some time to get into the groove again. I had already done a few passes through this story, but they picked out a few things so it sounded better.

The book itself isn’t done yet, but I think I only have a chapter or two more to go. I already know what the end will look like, I just need to fill in the spaces in between with logical progression. Unlike the dreams I have, the world does not just happen. An ending isn’t the logical conclusion to a built world, and I need to focus on the characters and their motivations.

Usually when I have a dream I decide I want to write it’s all fleshed out, however this one was based upon a visceral feeling I had while I dreamt it. It happened so long ago I’ve begun to confuse what was one dream with another. I’m lucky I wrote down what I remembered when I first woke up, otherwise I’d be left piecing together all my dreams into a story. While that might be an interesting read, it certainly wouldn’t contain the story I had made up while asleep.

While today I only wrote a few hundred words, I did go back and edit several pages as well. I’ve been doing this often simply because I tend to read back a few pages to get the feeling for the story again, and now it has become habit. When I see something that needs rearranging, or rewording, I will do it that day, and it tends to help me get back into the flow. It also makes my work days slightly longer, but I think the final product is better for it.

I hope to have the first draft completed within the next few weeks, maybe sooner. I’ll just have to see if the intervening section of the story starts to mesh up with the ending I have in mind. Occasionally I’ve had to change endings to fit the narrative I’ve put into place, but I think I’m heading in the right direction currently.

What I’ve published

Outsider Trilogy

Outsiders-Book-Cover-RGB-web-safeClick here for a link to the book

Poetry

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Link to my author page on Amazon – hhttp://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Or you can help me out on Patreon. Again, thank you. https://www.patreon.com/StevenOaks

Update: Only 474 new words written for the newest novel.

“I’m writing a first draft and reminding myself that I’m simply shoveling sand into a box so that later I can build castles.”
― Shannon Hale

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Angel Beats rewatch

What is there to do when you are sick? You can’t really exert yourself overly much, and by extension not make excursions far afield. So I wound up watch movies and tv shows.

I try hard not to consume that type of media overly much, and I suppose I could have simply read more, but I grew weary of staying in bed. Out in my living room is a perfectly good television, and with the chromecast attached I have access to a vast supply of entertainment. Of course I have DVD’s and the like I could have used, but the google movie store, Crunchyroll, along with Netflix and the like, allow us to ignore that soon to be outdated media.

So with all the world’s media accessible, what did I wind up watching? If I can recall from my fevered state, a few movies, and I watched all of Angel Beats again. This is an anime that made me break down and cry multiple times, and the last episode still had me openly weeping for long after the last scene had played out.

At first you think it is just going to be a fun ride. Outrageous scenes play over and over again through the first episode, but the dark nature of the world soon comes to light. As you get to know the vast cast of characters, you hear their stories, and perhaps why they are there. All leading up to one of the sweetest, and yet most heart wrenching scenes in the final episode.

Would I recommend it? Absolutely. Just realize that the first few episodes don’t reflect on the message. Certainly it can be a funny, and silly romp, but things get serious fairly quickly. Even the second episode had me in tears the first time I saw it. So if you have time, and access to Crunchyroll, give it a watch.

What I’ve published

Outsider Trilogy

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Poetry

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Link to my author page on Amazon – hhttp://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Or you can help me out on Patreon. Again, thank you. https://www.patreon.com/StevenOaks

Update: 1,008 words written for the newest novel.

Even if we forget the faces of our friends, We will never forget the bonds that were carved into our souls.

-Yuzuru Otonashi (Angel Beats!)

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Fantastic Four (1994)

Recently I watched the 1994 film “Fantastic Four”. I have seen the 2005 version, and have heard how dreadful the new one is, so I wanted to see how horrible the budget version was. Too be honest I found it charming. The effects were terrible, but actually amusing. I was never bored, and honestly I couldn’t pull myself away from it.

There were scenes and portions of dialogue that were so silly, that while they felt as though the actors were always serious, it seemed more like a comedy. I genuinely was laughing throughout. There was even a moment right after the 4 escaped from Doom the first time that had me rolling on the floor laughing. Doom’s reaction was perfect, and hilarious, though I assume it wasn’t meant to be. His gestures throughout, and his apparent obsessive stroking of his underlings was so awkward and hilarious that I feel I would love to see a movie just with him as the protagonist.

This is the best kind of B movie. The attempt seemed serious, yet the product was comical. I would recommend watching this above the others that have come since. It’s charming, and it does seem to try to stay true to the material, from what I know. Of course my only exposure to Fantastic Four was through the animated series that came out in ’94. I recall it with fondness, along with all the other comic book cartoons at the time. It was never my favorite, but it had its place, and I genuinely looked forward to watching it whenever it was on.

So if you can find it, and have a bit of fondness for the Fantastic Four, and a forgiving nature to what wasn’t done correctly, watch it. I think you’ll find the unintentional humor to your liking.

What I’ve published

Outsider Trilogy

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Poetry

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Link to my author page on Amazon – hhttp://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Or you can help me out on Patreon. Again, thank you. https://www.patreon.com/StevenOaks

Update: 1,000 words written for the newest novel.

“Listen, I’m going to tell you this because no one else will, Franklin. Spider-Man sucks.”
― Jonathan Hickman

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Harsh words spoken

A gentle word spoken harshly

may cause the heart to beat

a tempo that tears at the soul

and make one weak at the feet

Just as music can be fierce

yet speak volumes of kindness

will still stir to life intensity

and fill one with meanness

Keep calm words gentle

and harsh words loud

lest confusion and tension build

in the minds of your fellow man

What I’ve published

Outsider Trilogy

Outsiders-Book-Cover-RGB-web-safeClick here for a link to the book

Poetry

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Link to my author page on Amazon – hhttp://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Or you can help me out on Patreon. Again, thank you. https://www.patreon.com/StevenOaks

Update: 1,052 words written for the newest novel.

“Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a harder battle.”
― Plato

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