Just a little more

I’m very close to a personal goal right now. I have nearly reached a hundred likes on Facebook for my author page. It has taken quite awhile, as I know some people don’t want to use Facebook any more. However, it’s easier for me to know when someone comments, or wishes feedback from me while I’m away from home.

So here I am asking for more help from you my readers. If you could be so kind as to like my page, I would be very appreciative. I know it’s not something you probably want to do, and may offer not a huge value to you, but it does help me, even if it is just a little.

You will receive the same content that I post here, but perhaps you will notice it sooner, if that is something you like. Also I tend to respond quicker, and with perhaps a bit more articulation there. The phone that I have now only allows me so many apps because of storage, but since besides texting, Facebook is really the only app I have on the phone to allow me to communicate I’ve made sure to install it.

Once I reach 100 likes I will announce the title of the third Outsider book there. If it happens today I will let you know the working title for the new novel I’m writing.

I thank all of you who have already liked the page, but please let your friends and possibly family know about it. Every like counts.

Here is the link for you if you please.  https://www.facebook.com/theauthorstevenoaks

 

Or you can help me out on Patreon. Again, thank you. https://www.patreon.com/StevenOaks

 

What I’ve published

poems_front2Deatship - Book 1 of the Outsider SeriesStarship - Book 2 of the Outsider Series

Link to my author page on Amazon – hhttp://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Update – The third Outsider book is going very well. I think I’ve been able to shape it up into something better than it was before with just a few more words, or different words here and there. It seems to flow very well, at least for me. I’m looking forward to releasing it, though I’m still unsure when that might be. Though I will do it sometime this year. Earlier the better.

“A single smile may move the heart of the coldest mind. Reach out to those around you, and show that smile.”

– Steven Oaks

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Define emotions to me

I find emotions the strangest thing to try to understand. Language seems unsuited to explain them to another person, so we are left to decipher them on our own.

Certainly we have been able to give names to such things, however these names are meaningless without experiencing them. So when you experience something as positive you might call it happiness, or even joy. But is that what it is? We can’t pull them out and have others look at our emotions, so we have to just guess that we’re right in our own understanding.

Those of us with the ability to see can look at colors, and we can try to define them with each other. This is blue, and this is red, we might say. And we can at least have a difference of opinion if the blending looks different to us. But when it comes to something internal, like emotions, or even pain, we can’t explain it properly enough to transmit the true feelings behind such things.

So when I ask questions to people about emotions, like what is love, they seemed hard pressed to do so. Mostly they define it by actions. You do things for the other to make sure they’re happy. But sometimes they answer they feel empty without their love ones around. That is an emotion. If you’ve never felt empty or alone without another person how can you then define it to yourself?

I’m not saying I don’t feel lonely, I do at times… okay, more than that. But is that truly what love is? Loneliness?

I think some of the issue with love in particular is that it has been romanticized so much in literature it has become cloudy. Mostly I think it’s written as if it is puppy-love. Meaning it’s not the long love of those who have been together for many years. That isn’t focused on as much. Certainly you see an older couple talking about how much they care about each other from time to time, but it’s never fully fleshed out.

I personally have an issue with emotions. Since I’m unable to define them, I’m unable to control them. I will be happy, or horribly depressed for no reason. It can drive me near insanity at times because I don’t see the logic in their appearance. Also when I try to examine my own feelings, they tend to disappear. That is if I’m in a state of mind that allows me to inspect them. As I’m sure some of you have experienced, when an emotion hits me all I can do is feel.

So what is the point of me saying all this? Basically I want to know if someone can define emotions to me with words that make a logical sense. I know that chemicals in the brain stimulate certain other parts and can cause emotions, but is there a series of words that someone can write down so that there is a standard understanding of emotion.

I feel almost as if I’m asking scientists to explain color and light to a blind person. At least I can feel, but do we all feel the same things? It’s confusing, and frustrating to me that a simple word such as ‘love’ can only be defined by words that mean ‘love’.

I look forward to any responses to this.

 

Help me out on Patreon. Again, thank you. https://www.patreon.com/StevenOaks

 

What I’ve published

poems_front2Deatship - Book 1 of the Outsider SeriesStarship - Book 2 of the Outsider Series

Link to my author page on Amazon – hhttp://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Update – I was busy this morning doing errands, so I shall strive to work on one of my books after I post this. A troubled day yesterday led me to post this particular blog.

“The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched. They must be felt with the heart”
― Helen Keller

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Helping others is strangely fun!

Talking with friends always makes me happy. If I can help them it makes me even happier. I become full of energy, and ready for the next challenge. If only I could be paid for that.

I like helping. I think I’m decent at it, and it is such a positive feeling seeing someone smile, or after interacting with them they seem brighter. It’s difficult to put into words the connection that I feel when I’m able to assist, even if it’s a simple matter. However I do grow tired eventually. Otherwise I’d be doing nothing but going around to strangers to see if I could help.

It’s much easier when it’s someone I know. I don’t feel as drained, and it doesn’t feel like a demand upon me. This is a strange evolution of myself. At one point in time I saw people who liked to help as wanting something…. not really caring. Now I see it might be for that positive glow that comes from them afterwards.

If I can help, I think I will these days. I’ve shut myself away for too long. I think I’m best at lending an ear to hear complaints. I usually can understand where people are coming from, and that makes it easier to resolve issues between people. If I could choose my own clientèle I might even be passionate enough in this desire to help to be a councillor, though that is a rough life.

For now I will continue to do what I have been, and see if I can get this third book in the Outsider Series finished.

 

Help me out on Patreon. Again, thank you. https://www.patreon.com/StevenOaks

 

What I’ve published

poems_front2Deatship - Book 1 of the Outsider SeriesStarship - Book 2 of the Outsider Series

Link to my author page on Amazon – hhttp://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Update – The final book is looking good. I added just a few words to a scene as I read it with the passion the characters should be feeling, and that helped so much. Now I think it conveys even more emotion. This may be the best book I’ve written yet… then again that should be the case as I learn and grow.

“No one is useless in this world who lightens the burdens of another.”
― Charles Dickens

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It’s your time

Running is hard once more.

I eat too much, I move too little

Sloth is taking over, yet I’ve much to explore.

I need more sun.

I need more energy.

My skin is pale and I’ve spent too much time alone inside.

Sick and full of pain

what shall I do to be free again?

I must work at something

Shackles made of currency

hinder the growth of my humanity

I’m free to think

but to think I need to not be exhausted

and to get the time to think I need money

and endless cycle that seems fruitless

At least I can try, while others have died

However each life is personal

and each horror we face is our own

compare not one’s sorrow with another

we experience life differently, you and I

What is easy or hard for you may not be for me

Give love, and you shall receive love

Life is easier with this than it is with hate

or all our accomplishments will be negated

You will only be remembered by your actions

make them good ones, and instil compassion.

 

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What I’ve published

poems_front2Deatship - Book 1 of the Outsider SeriesStarship - Book 2 of the Outsider Series

Link to my author page on Amazon – hhttp://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Update – I reworked the last few words in the last book of the Outsider series. I like it sooooooo much better now. Now I just need to get my editors eyes to finish up this book.

“Control leads to compliance; autonomy leads to engagement.”
― Daniel H. Pink

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They Storm of Seasons

Thunder roars

lightning strikes

the hail pours forth

but it brings life

Weather is the pulse

that beats in time with the seasons

it is the natural order of the world

and only occasionally is pleasing

It can cause death

with all its harshness

but the sky blood can do more

its breath breaks us away from bareness

The trees will bloom

and so will the land

be thankful to this world

where life comes back from death’s hand.

 

Help me out on Patreon. Again, thank you. https://www.patreon.com/StevenOaks

 

What I’ve published

poems_front2Deatship - Book 1 of the Outsider SeriesStarship - Book 2 of the Outsider Series

Link to my author page on Amazon – hhttp://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Update – More editing done today… and Pancakes were eaten. I miss this cycle of creativity daily.

“Life isn’t about waiting for the storm to pass…It’s about learning to dance in the rain.”
― Vivian Greene

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Thanks for the smiles

It only takes one person to brighten your day. I’m glad I’ve been able to make friends where I am now. Otherwise I probably wouldn’t have stuck around. It is stressful, then again all things are, but seeing their smiling faces makes things all the better.

Also I was called forth to help some of the newer people, though only for a few minutes, and I felt needed and appreciated. I like doing that. I’ve no issue helping clients/customers, but usually I prefer face to face. Hence my current dilemma of the soul.

It’s not as if it is difficult for me to do the job, but talking to so many people, who have little knowledge of what I need, which is not their fault, does become tedious.

My dream is to assist my co-workers, and currently I must be patient. I thought I was, but apparently my sense of time is off these days. I feel as though I’ve been working here for much longer, and I seem to do an adequate job of it. I think it’s time for me to move on and learn something different. I’d like to do it where I am, so we shall see.

In the end, I just wish to be happy. I’ll just have to do whatever it takes to make that happen. Be well all of you.

 

Help me out on Patreon. Again, thank you. https://www.patreon.com/StevenOaks

 

What I’ve published

poems_front2Deatship - Book 1 of the Outsider SeriesStarship - Book 2 of the Outsider Series

Link to my author page on Amazon – hhttp://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Update – Welcome to Tuesday… A day of laundry and cleaning. Bah… I should be writing.

“Patience is bitter, but its fruit is sweet.”
― Aristotle

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Dark Heart

The heart grows heavy

the mind grows dull

the soul is empty

life is covered in a pall

Friends cry out to you

they just want to help

but is there a way

for them to reach out?

The fight is our own

though kind words are welcome

we must fight our own demons

alone and unencumbered

We raise our own shields

to defend against unwanted emotion

but the darkness in our depths

is a never-ending pain ocean

But light can shine through

an island can be found

we calm the sea of the mind

with logic there is solid ground

Stand firm and defend

with wit and wisdom

emotions are fleeting

but knowledge is forever

Rely not on others in this matter

we each have to find our own way

but know sufferers out there

you can win the day.

 

Help me out on Patreon. Again, thank you. https://www.patreon.com/StevenOaks

 

What I’ve published

poems_front2Deatship - Book 1 of the Outsider SeriesStarship - Book 2 of the Outsider Series

Link to my author page on Amazon – hhttp://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Update – More edits on the third Outsider book made this day. Sickness in body leads to dark thoughts.

“That’s the thing about depression: A human being can survive almost anything, as long as she sees the end in sight. But depression is so insidious, and it compounds daily, that it’s impossible to ever see the end.”
― Elizabeth Wurtzel

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Who’s the fool?

Conveying ideas thought of

Noting others as they pass

Whispering words that will not last

Intentions falling apart

Dreams never wanted

Slipping away into darkness

Voyages lost in thought

Prose made reality in deed

Nothing is what it seemed

The fools are those older than you

Practising their view

but pushed aside for new

Celebrate the day as you wish

but recall why we do

you who are the fool

 

Help me out on Patreon. Again, thank you. https://www.patreon.com/StevenOaks

 

What I’ve published

poems_front2Deatship - Book 1 of the Outsider SeriesStarship - Book 2 of the Outsider Series

Link to my author page on Amazon – hhttp://www.amazon.com/Steven-Oaks/e/B00MEGSEZ6

Link to the Deathship book in the CreateSpace store – https://www.createspace.com/5023771

Update – Edits for the last book coming along. I’d mention the name, but you’d not believe me this day.

“I like to schedule dentist appointments for March 32, otherwise known as April Fool’s Day.”
― Jarod Kintz,

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